A little more snow....

We woke this morning with MORE snow on the ground. Getting to the mailbox will be a bit of a challenge today but I plan to try. I'm afraid if I don't, Mama will try to go get the mail.


The dogs were restless last night. I don't know if they were hearing the wind, other animals, or what but they had me up at 2:00 am and that is unusual.


John David came by on Monday afternoon. We had a good talk and he also told me a few things I'd never heard before. He said he sees a Dr. Skaggs who evidently knew me in High School. He said he asks about me every time he sees him. I said that without a first name I couldn't place him. Then he said he may be closer to MS's age and knew me through her. I still don't have a clue. John said he told him I was the kind of girl every boy wanted to marry. Well, I wish some of those boys would have told me that in high school! I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it but John said a number of people have told him that. I guess I'll take it as a compliment and forget about it since that's all in the past and I wouldn't change who I ended up with and how my life has turned out!!!

Come to think about it, one boy did tell me that......three times.....but I still think I made the correct decision to go on to college instead of getting married. I think I would have always wondered how different my life could have been had I not gone on to UK. I remember feeling sad hurting him. He was distant after the third time, but I just couldn't not go. I think he did understand. I was his wife's maid of honor at their wedding so he must have been alright with it by then. I'm sad to learn they divorced after having two boys. Evidently he remarried but I've not heard anymore about him. I've not seen him since their wedding and probably would not recognize him if he stood next to me in line at Wal-mart. After seeing how much all of us have changed there are very few I WOULD have recognized. The only one I've seen who hasn't changed a lot is Charlotte Stevenson Shaw. She still looks like herself!


I told John I felt fat and ugly all through school. The slides show that wasn't true but it was how I felt and it drove my emotions. John was surprised to hear that because he certainly doesn't remember me that way. He thought I was beautiful and wonderful. Wow! Compliments from a brother are great! I wish I could have seen myself more as I really was. I would certainly have been a happier person in school. I knew I made very good grades, was in the Beta Club and in the top 10 % of my class, enjoyed Girl Scouts and became a leader after being a Senior Scout, Played the piano - barely, played the clarinet - quite well, and was in the marching band until I was a Senior and my allergies made it hard to breathe and play and march at the same time, came from a wonderful family with good people, had a number of friends, was liked by most of my teachers, could talk the Superintendent into letting me take a class that was traditionally a boys only class, was really good in Geometry, had a great boyfriend, had really good parties, was very involved in church activities like MYF, and was generally a happy person.....yet I felt fat and ugly most of the time. Life can be so hard when you are a teenager.


College was great. I made a lot of new friends, saw the kids from home who were there too, went to class, did my homework, studied (not enough), partied (too much), and eventually got sick with Mono. I wish I'd put more effort into studying and figured out how to do better in classes. I know I could have done better and finished college with a degree. I fell in love and that became the focus. School became a far second. I don't regret falling in love and getting married but I wish I'd gone back to school once he graduated. Way too late now because even if I did get a degree I wouldn't want to use it. It would take up too much of my time. Maybe that was what stopped me then!