Wednesday night.......

I don't know WHAT is the matter with me tonight. I feel so tired and emotional and I even had a nap this afternoon. Everything is getting to me right now!

Sam just followed the neighbor's dog across the yard and Mama got upset and went out to blow the whistle. She blew and blew and blew. Not very strong but almost continuous. He did not come for her. I think he knew it wasn't my whistle so he didn't come. I told her I would try. I blew once, very loudly, and here he came....panting because he'd been running hard! She and MS both blow repeatedly instead of once. I think it confuses him. Well maybe not. He doesn't come when they call if he knows I'm here so maybe it doesn't confuse him afterall.

It actually made me upset that Mama blew repeatedly. I'm not sure why but I just felt like crying. Right now he is very upset with me because I won't let him go back outside. He's going from one to the other of us just like a little kid begging and begging. I've told him "no", and he isn't going out now because I don't want him following the other dogs around the neighborhood. It doesn't bother me at all that he's unhappy with me right now because I know I'm right.

I think it's like having someone else fuss at your child. You can easily get angry with them even if your child is in the wrong.

I'm having some trouble with my leg muscles too. They are very weak again and I'm having trouble walking for long distances. I've been trying to walk more and have found myself getting weaker instead of stronger. My hip begins to ache (arthritis) and then my legs get weak where they used to shake so much when I was having hyperthyroidism from the Graves Disease. I wonder if there is any connection or if my muscles have just gotten so weak that it's going to take longer to get them back in good working order. The steps bother me after half way up the second flight too. I need to do some leg exercises and see if that will help.

It's not like I haven't been busy today. I've done laundry, put the rows of the quilt top together, cooked, washed up, walked, blew the gunk out of the garage....it doesn't sound like much after all.
I'm going to bed...maybe things will look better in the morning!